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I have no children myself and my husband, thanks to a disgusting ex-wife, has no relationship with his daughter. But we do have a child…just not a traditional one. Our miniature dachshund, Daisy, is our child. She means more to us then most of the humans we know. She has brought so much joy and happiness to our lives. She is our child.
She is sick right now…the vet thinks it is possibly liver disease. As if dealing with a guarded prognosis isn’t bad enough, we have to deal with the fact that we don’t have thousands or even hundreds in the bank and the vet wants money right then. No payments…all of it. So they are essentially telling us that should things get worse we have to make a decision of finding a way to pay at any cost or they won’t help our little girl. How fucked up is that?
We did just talk to the vet and she is more optimistic and that makes us much more hopeful for our little girl and we have found another option that will allow some payments. But even when then is over it has opened my eyes to how messed up this country’s veterinarian practices are….they are supposed to help but sure seem to only be in it for the money.
So Monday we started DDP Yoga over again. I’m not making excuses…life happened and we got off course. I can’t say the eating habits went back to what they were because I already can tell my stomach has shrank, but the workouts suffered. Now we are back on track and I am going to give 100% to making this change happen.
I feel good when I work out. I’m proud of myself when I work out and sometimes I get mad at myself for having not done it before now. I feel stupid for having waited so long.
I have an issue with food and it’s caused problems my whole life…caused me to do and say things that I wouldn’t normally and to people I care about. I thought I had things under control, but I didn’t and recently it caused a big problem within my personal life and now I’m working to make things better. Is it too late? I don’t know, but I have to try.
Anyway, Diamond Dozen and Energy were rocked tonight with some definite modifications, but I felt good at the end if not a bit sore and sweaty. =)